Freedom, Expression, Being

NOTICE TO ALL READERS

2008-10-18T17:35:00.001Z

Dear readers,

Just to let you know that if you've received an email from Enocia Joseph at my Yahoo account enocia_j@yahoo.co.uk begging for money, it's not from me. That email account has been compromised. I can't access it at the moment. Until advised otherwise, please ignore/delete emails received from that account.

If you need to get in contact please use this email address: theoneinall@googlemail.com.

With love,
Enocia

All Good Things

2007-01-29T11:00:00.000Z

All good things must unfold in wonderful ways.

End of blog.

More at Destination Nowhere.

With love,
Enocia

Welcome

2007-01-29T10:49:00.013Z

"Don Juan went on explaining that the moment one crosses a particular threshold in infinity, either deliberately or, as in my case, unwittingly, everything that happens to one from then on is no longer exclusively in one's own domain, but enters in the realm of infinity." The Active Side of Infinity, Carlos Castaneda
This blog represents Infinite being.

Infinite Being is a collection of stories, experiences, expressions, ideas that is and never personalised. I am simply the instrument expressing these ideas. They don't belong to me, nor do they belong to anyone. On the other hand, the ideas belong to everyone.

Freedom is, therefore, the willingness to engage with an experience without possessing it or making it personal, just let it be in its own way.

For other blog articles in alphabetical order see Making the Two One; I Am What I Am; I Need Not Want; It's All Done and Dusted - Part 2; It's All Done and Dusted; It is All Nothing; Being the Magic - Part 3; Being the Magic - Part 2; Being the Magic; Free to Be Me as Love; Free to Be Me; Love Always; Lucid Dreamer - Part 2; Lucid Dreamer; Destination Nowhere; Living as Love-Light; Home Sweet Home! - The Sequel; Home Sweet Home!; Infinite Life, Infinite Joy; The One in All, Vector8 Journals and Vector8 Writings.

Unless otherwise stated, all articles are copyright © 2006-2009 Enocia Joseph. You have my permission to copy and distribute articles for personal use only. Please include the link to the particular blog. For any other use other than personal, and any comments you might have, please email theoneinall@googlemail.com.
Much gratitude and love to Ben Gilberti for designing the Light fractal.

Enjoy...

Enocia

Articles in Alphabetical Order

--A--

Abandon Ship versus Being Here Now
Acting is Being
Acting is Being - Part 2
All is Light
All is Mind
All or Nothing
Am I Bothered?
Answers are Everywhere Present
Are You Sure You're Ready to Receive?
Awakening

--B--

Been There, Done That
Being Present
Beyond Belief

--C--

Can the Universe Have a Good or Bad Day?
Can You Fix It, God?
Can You Have Your Cake and Eat It Too?
Channelling
Clean Slate
Continuity
Creative Intelligence is Everywhere

--D--

Dead Men Walking
Do-Gooders!
Dreams Do Come True

--E--

Everything Works Out for the Best

--F--

False Readings
Fitting a Square Peg into a Round Hole
Freedom is Being the Love that I Am
Freedom Speaks

--G--

Gifts from Down Under
God Is
Grace Revisited

--H--

Help!
Honk, Honk!
How Do You Beat the Computer?
How Sweet is Love

--I--

If At First You Don't Succeed, Lie Again
In-Dependence
Is it a Bird? Is it a Plastic? It's Spirit Woman!
It's My Job

--J--

Jumping on the Bandwagon

--L--

Life is the Love-Light Expressing Self
Life is Music
Lifelines
Light Expressing Self
Light is All and in All
Light Needs No Teachers or Students
Light Season
Love's On the Case

--M--

Mary and Martha
My Function
My New Quest

--N--

No Beginning or End
No Other Cause
Nothing But a Hound Dog

--O--

Of Spirit and Claiming Your Spirit Passport
Omnipresent Spirit
One Love, Many Guises and Special Relationships
Onomatopoeia

--P--

Perceptions
Playfulness
Playing It Stupid
Possession
Practical Spirituality

--R--

Religion and Spirituality

--S--

Satellite Navigation System
Self-Expression
Sharing the Joy; Being in Joy
Sleeping Partners
Some Thoughts on Meditation - Haha
Support

--T--

The Almighty at Work
The Causeless Cause
The Gift of Unbelief
The Intention to Love and Be Love
The Life DVD
The One Brotherhood of Man
The Senses as Receiving Instruments
The Studio
The Timeless Now
The Wonder of Beliefs
Thought of the Day
Throwing a Wobbly
To My Beloved
Transformed By the Light

--U--

Undoing Programmes with the Light Grid
Undoing Programmes with the Light Grid - Part 2
Use By Date? Yeah, Right!

--W--

We are One
We Have All the Love in the World
What is Learning?
What Utter Madness!
When You Know You're On a Wild Goose Chase

Continuity

2007-01-26T13:00:00.000Z

Things are constantly changing. People come and go. You're watching your favourite film and enjoying it and before you know it, it's the end. You're reading your favourite book and before you know it, it's finished. Why can't we enjoy what we love forever? Why do things have to end?

Do all experiences have a beginning and end or do they appear that way?

When I listen to a song it starts off with silence, then the music comes on and plays until it tails off and I'm left with silence. If things start and end in silence this means that silence is the only continuity there is.

Silence is, always has been, and always will be. Silence is in all things. Because silence is in all experiences and in all things, silence is all there is. Since silence is all there is there can be no beginning or end.

When I'm listening to music I see it as silence transmuting itself into harmonies that sound like music and then back into silence. The music is still playing but as silence. This means music never ends.

Love never ends;
Power never ends;
Peace never ends;
Joy never ends;
Wisdom never ends;
Light never ends;
Abundance never ends;
Goodness never ends;
Happiness never ends;
Comfort never ends;
Friendship never end;
Fulfilment never ends;
Beauty never ends;
Perfection never ends;
Life never ends.

How do you make that which never ends into a physical reality? I'm reminded of what a friend said to me recently: "I like chips (fries) but I wouldn't want to have them every single day." The point is to know that whatever you love is always available whether you choose to have it or not.

All good is available now.

I am silence.

Enocia

Related articles: Beyond the Senses; All Good is Ever Present; I Change Not; The Power of Inner Silence; You Already Know It All

Religion and Spirituality

2007-01-25T15:23:00.001Z

Yesterday, I chatted to this lovely gentleman. He asked me what kind of stuff I write about and I said spirituality.

"You mean religion?"
"No, I don't follow any particular religion, I simply believe in God."

He couldn't understand how I could believe in God and not be religious.

I believe God is all there is.

God is Love is Wisdom is Power is Light is Bliss is Joy is Freedom is Spirit is Energy is Beauty is All There Is.

God is in all things including all religions.

It is God's allness that I write about.

I do not follow any religion, I am a practising spirit.

Enocia

Related articles: Of Spirit and Claiming Your Spirit Passport; Peace Be With You; Diwali - Festival of Lights; Meeting with Friends

The Intention to Love and Be Love

2007-01-24T13:43:00.000Z

The colours of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shakin' hands, sayin' "How do you do?"
They're really saying "I love you" What a Wonderful World, Louis Armstong
All is Love. This means despite appearances, it is our function to love; it is the intention of all there is to act with love and to be love.

Everything and everywhere is radiating love. This means I'm constantly receiving love every moment. It may not always seem that way as appearances can seem to get in the way. For instance, when I'm reading someone's experience shared on a forum, it doesn't always resonate. It's as if the words, concepts or doctrines are blocking what the writer is wishing to express. Instead of dismissing the writing as irrelevant, I realise the one love behind the writer. In other words, the writer is saying "I love you," which I gladly receive.

A while back in the library, I offered to assist this man who was trying to log on to the Internet. I told him he needed to register with the librarian who would log him in. The man was really hostile and he swore at me. That was a huge shock to my system. The manager of the library came up to me and apologised on the man's behalf. She told me not to take his attack personally as the man wasn't all there. The next time I was the library I noticed he was back and being hostile to someone else. His favourite way of intimidating people was to stand behind them and glare at them. The librarians advised users to ignore him. People got used to his behaviour and got on with their work. One day, while I was working on the Internet, he came and stood behind me. I decided it was time to teach him a lesson he would never forget. I felt God's presence within him and imagined rays of love radiating from him to me; and I received his love with gratitude. After a few minutes he moved away and went to sit down. Later, our eyes met and he actually grinned at me. Wow! I'd never seen him smile before let alone grin. Nice grin you've got there, God.

What I was doing with the man in the library was reminding him that despite appearances, the reason he was standing behind me was to express his love and I was happy to receive his love. After all, since there is only Love, every moment Love is saying "I love you."

Does this mean the man's behaviour completely changed? Yes and no. Yes, he never behaved the way he used to with me; he tends to avoid me. On the other hand, he still continues to glare at people and intimidate those who feel he is intimidating, while the library staff continue to ignore him.

I used to experience what I would refer to as psychic attacks. Thoughts of anger and hate used to feel as if I was having darts thrown at me and it's not a pleasant feeling. I knew when someone was having a not so nice thought about me by the feeling of pins and needles around my throat. Another way to look at psychic attack is it demonstrates a divided mind. Where there is only one there is no other to launch an attack at; but when you see the universe as split into many conflicting parts, you may experience this conflict in the form of attacks resulting in physical or emotional pain. The worst form of attack I've ever experienced happened one night while I was sleeping. I woke up feeling a "hand" on my throat trying to strangle me. As I was fighting for dear life, I thought of a line in the Bible.

"Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil." Psalm 23: 4
The "hand" immediately left my throat.

The way I've been dealing with attacks is to realise that there is only the one Love. I tend not to think of personalities because I end up feeling their thoughts which is not always pleasant. I prefer feeling the essence of everyone as Spirit. Last night I woke up and felt pins and needles around the throat. I thought "Whatever thought I'm picking up, your intention is to love." The pain immediately vanished.

I have noticed when I read newspapers with the intention to see love and be love, I tend to see love and harmony behind the stories. Otherwise, the news is filled with propaganda, spin, dogma and rhetoric.

The intention of all forms, all experiences, all life is to be who they really are - love. Sometimes, people forget that there is only one love and think thoughts of separation. I can help by constantly remembering the intention to love.

My intention is to love and be love.

Enocia

Related articles: Throwing a Wobbly; We Have All the Love in the World; Peace Be With You; Loving the News; Being the Source; Receiving; The Will to Do Good; Dissolving Personalities; How To Avoid a Divided Mind

Channelling

2007-01-23T11:21:00.000Z

Last night, I watched a documentary on television called Trust Me I'm a Healer. In this episode called "Mr and Mrs Healer", a man called Ray Brown claimed to be channelling the spirit of St Paul of Tarsus; Paul wrote most of the epistles in the New Testament of the Bible.

Funnily enough, the day before, I was reading about Paul's "thorn in his flesh" that he couldn't get rid of. He didn't say what the thorn in his flesh was but he claimed it was a reminder that he lived by Grace. (see 2 Corinthians 12: 7-12) So it was interesting to watch a documentary the very next day about someone who claimed to be channelling the same Paul. Perhaps, I was channelling Paul.

St Paul works through Ray to heal patients. Ray said it's like going into a trance with your eyes open. Ray said he dies every time Paul takes over his body, and he has no memory of what Paul has been doing. Ray keeps his healing separate from his family. His daughter, Sophie, from his previous marriage, said she doesn't know much about his work but has heard of Paul healing people. At one point, Sophie met and spoke to Paul in form. According to Paul, the last time he saw her was when she was very young. Sophie said while the man she was speaking to looked like her dad, he was definitely not her father.

It's all very well having Paul take over Ray's body and work through him to heal others, but what about Ray? Doesn't Ray care about his own spiritual journey? Has he simply resigned himself to the fact that he's here for a short while and he might as well let Paul heal through him? Ray said Paul's presence has helped transform his life. Each to their own.

What is channelling anyway? It is communicating of information. It seems to me that we're always channelling, we simply call it by different names. When I'm getting information from the Internet, I'm channelling but in IT speak it's called downloading. When I have ideas to write an article, I'm channelling but in literary speak it's called inspiration. When I'm being entertained by television I'm channelling but it's called watching telly. Is this why TV channels are called channels, I wonder? When I'm tuning into myself it's channelling but it's popularly known as intuition. When I'm tuning into someone's thoughts in human form or otherwise, I'm channelling but it's called telepathy or mediumship.

Within "spiritual circles" every man and his dog is channelling one entity or another from angels, gurus, masters, guides, ETs, and all sorts. If it's all Love and we are Love, isn't it possible what you're channelling is coming from yourself? It's as if people are scared to admit that they could possibly be a storehouse of wisdom and love. They would rather attribute the channelled material to someone else, a deceased pet even, than admit that the idea can possibly come from them. Others might argue that they want to be sure what they're channelling is not coming from the ego. If you're so scared why not go for broke and channel God? After all, all the mystics have taught that we all have God within us. Even the channelling master, Edgar Cayce has said the ultimate form of channelling is Channelling your Higher Self.

In the book Light Emerging, Barbara Brennan, talks about the core star which is the "inner Divine Core that is our connection to the Eternal Divine." In other words, while there is only One in all, each of us is the One; and it is through the "core star" that we experience who we are. As you are being the One that is you, you're automatically united with the One in all. Put another way, the easiest way to be in unity with all is to be yourself.

As babies we are full of joy because we're channelling our true selves. Bit by bit society chips away at who we are being and before you know it, you're a shadow of your real self, too frightened to speak your truth lest you're seen as rising above your station. There is always the odd exception to the rule, however.

Last week while I was in the children's section in the library, I chatted to a librarian. He's always so full of joy. He asked me what I was doing in the children's section. I told him my latest quest was to read all the Tintin books. I read all of them as a child but I would like to read them again. He teased me about reading children's books. He said he wasn't a great reader, he prefers fixing things; his brother is the reader in the family. He's recently graduated from University with a First Class Honours in IT. He said his brother studied English. He said he's happy to have found his path in life and loves what he's doing. He said it's a shame children are not encouraged to study what they love. He said when someone has an IT problem he can instantly "see" different scenarios and knows exactly what to do. I told him I feel the same way about writing. I receive ideas complete in themselves. We are both seeing the universe from our unique standpoints. No wonder he's so happy, he's being true to himself.

Until people trust in who they are, they will always look to another to channel a teacher of master on their behalf, which is fair enough.

When I'm channelling myself, then and only then am I being true to myself. From all the emails I'm receiving from people who read my blogs, it looks like I'm inspiring others to be true to themselves; which has to be a good thing.

I am who I am.

Enocia

Related articles: Abandon Ship versus Being Here Now; My Function; Being Full of Self; My Book of Life; Do What You Love and Love What You Do; DNA; True To The Music; On Channelling; What's Good for the Goose is Good for the Gander

Jumping on the Bandwagon

2007-01-22T11:54:00.000Z

Over the last week there has been a furore in the media caused by events in the "Celebrity Big Brother" household, where a group of celebrities had allegedly bullied an Indian celebrity. Thousands of viewers interpreted their actions as racist. Before you know it, politicians were on the bandwagon and it had now become an international affair. One day one of the women involved, who was seen as the ringleader, apologised to the Indian celebrity and they kissed and made up. The next day the "ringleader" was evicted from the house. During her exit interview, she expressed how disgusted she was with herself for behaving the way she did. She also insisted that her actions weren't racist.

As I'm writing this, the debate still continues in the media. Obviously it's in the media's interest to keep it going as long as possible. I'm also jumping on the bandwagon because I believe the issue is not about racism or bullying but about love of self.

I'm sure most of us have said and done awful things to one another. When you feel like shit you're going to act and think like shit, regardless of how the law or society says you should behave. So instead of pointing a finger at others, I would rather use this opportunity to love, as they are all aspects of self.

I'm grateful to everyone involved to have raised this issue. My love to everyone involved including the celebrities in "Big Brother", the television channel involved, the media, media audience and everyone.

I love you all.

Enocia

Related articles: Clean Slate; As I Love Others, I am Loving Myself; Loving the News; Charity Begins and Ends at Home

Clean Slate

2007-01-22T10:24:00.000Z

Yesterday I watched the Top 100 Boy Band Songs on VH1. One of the songs on the chart was "As Long as You Love Me" by the Backstreet Boys. The chorus goes:

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me Lyrics
Won't it be wonderful if we all experienced life this way? It doesn't matter what you've done, it doesn't matter who you are, only love matters. That's what I call clean slate.

In case anyone's wondering, the top song was "Pray" by my favourite boy band of all time, Take That.

To all the boy bands out there - it doesn't matter what rubbish songs you've produced in the past, I love you all.

Enocia

Related articles: Grace Revisited; Just Say Now

Love's On the Case

2007-01-20T16:08:00.000Z

Someone said to me that the weather forecasters are predicting cold weather next week. I didn't say anything. I simply nodded.

In thought I realised the truth of Love's presence. Since Love is present in all time, Love is already on the case. How Love is made manifest is none of my concern.

Love is yesterday, today, tomorrow.
Love is here, there, everywhere.
Love is all time and all space.

Enocia

Related articles: Been There, Done That; Time and Timelessness; Stop Trying So Hard!

Grace Revisited

2007-01-20T15:38:00.000Z

The following was previously posted at my other blog Home Sweet Home!.

Enocia

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I believe while there is only one Love there are different expressions of that Love.

There is Love that is acceptance. You can accept someone for who he is without agreeing with his behaviour. You know he is expressing himself based on what he knows or believes. And while you accept others as they are, you also accept yourself just as you are because you know you're always doing the best you can at any given moment. In this respect, acceptance is recognising that every moment is perfect.

There is a Love that chastens. This Love is constantly teaching you the truth of reality and corrects you when you're off-track. In other words, Love makes you see things as they are, not as you've been programmed they are.

There is a Love that I can only refer to as Grace. Let's look at what the scriptures have to say about Grace:

"Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits, who forgives all your iniquity, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the Pit, who crowns you with steadfast love and mercy, who satisfies you with good as long as you live so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's." (Psalm Psalm 103: 3-5)
Grace is not concerned with healing you when you've understood truth, nor is She bothered about correction. Grace loves you whether you think you're deserving or not. Grace loves you whether you know of Her presence or not. Grace is acceptance and then some.

Now Grace is not some lovely idea that one can confine to the realm of the divine; we all know about and practise Grace from time to time. For instance, when I was hit by a car as a child, it was Grace in action that got me to the hospital. If there wasn't Grace, I would have been left on the street because it was my fault for not checking behind the stationary van before crossing the road.

The last time I saw someone involved in a car accident, I witnessed Grace in action. A few of us saw this elderly woman lying on the ground in a hit-and-run accident. Grace as a man called the ambulance on his mobile phone. Grace as another man ran to the local post office to ask for a blanket so we could cover the woman. Grace as another man went to the local pharmacist to get some bandage. Grace as myself held the woman's hand and prayed. Grace as the police arrived and directed the traffic. Grace as the paramedic team arrived to take care of the woman. When no one could understand what the injured woman was saying, Grace arrived as two men who could speak her language and were able to interpret on her behalf. This is a demonstration of Grace. Grace doesn't care what you've been doing before, nor does She care what beliefs you have. Grace is only bothered about loving in every moment.

Of course, the Love that chastens does have its place. That kind of Love is like being aware of the traffic code so you know how to cross the road so you don't get run over; and you learn to check behind a stationary vehicle before crossing. The problem with learning is that you're likely get stuck into believing life is about demonstrating the truth you've learned. Grace is beyond all concepts of Truth. Grace is Love that is endlessly pouring Love. You never know how this Love is going to unfold, just trust in it.

Incidentally, I received an email from a friend today, which my friend has given me permission to post:

"Yesterday I had a nice dream. In the dream, I felt abundance of cosmic energy (love) flowing into my heart and I realized that I was able to access the power. I wanted to test the power, so I took the broken flute. As soon as I touched it, it became perfect and wonderful flute. When I woke up in the morning, I was very fresh and I tried to do something which I tried in the dream and nothing happened. hahahahaa!"
My friend is talking about Grace, Infinite love that is constantly flowing in every moment. However, while Grace is cosmic energy, how It is manifested takes limitless forms.

This was my response to my friend's email:

"As for the dream, of course you are always connected to Love. You are Love. Just because your flute doesn't seem to have been fixed doesn't mean it isn't. Just trust in Love.

"Years ago, my laptop broke down. It came up with an error message and no matter what I typed it wouldn't recognise it. Before that, I'd been thinking that I was sick of the laptop and wanted a new one and new software. But I couldn't sell it because I didn't think I would get anything for it. I prayed for it to work but it didn't. I left it alone and borrowed a laptop from a friend. After a few days that laptop stopped working. My friend said she would take her laptop to her dad to fix it. I asked her if she could take mine as well just in case. Her dad was able to change the hard drive in my laptop which he said had conked out. It turned out he had one spare which he gave me. He then downloaded free software. So in a long-winded way I did get what I was seeking - new software.

"Never underestimate the power of love. Just because you're not aware of something doesn't mean it's not working."
ace takes care of our needs in Her own way. All we need to do is trust in Her and She never lets us down. Only when we believe we have to demonstrate what we understand do we hold back our good. Even so, Grace is constantly pouring love our way no matter what, even if your laptop has to be taken round the houses to get it sorted.

So we can continue to learn about the law, the rules and regulations, or we can step into Grace. When you walk in Grace there's no need to think about cars because the roads will always be clear when you need to cross it. Even if the roads are not clear, you might find yourself across the road and not know how you got there. I remember once I crossed the road thinking the cars had stopped. I "woke up" and realised the traffic was moving at a normal pace. At that moment I had experienced a simultaneous dimension - where two events are happening at the same time and in the same space.

Grace is right here and now. But if you're too busy learning how to cross the road you miss walking in Grace.

I walk in Grace.
I am Grace.

Enocia

Related articles: : Come, Let Me Kiss You Better!; The Path of Receiving; Grace in Action; The Inner Heart; Grace; Guilt Complex; Dressing You in Love; Living Under Grace

Am I Bothered?

2007-01-19T10:43:00.000Z

In The Catherine Tate Show there is a character called Lauren, a teenage girl whose catchphrase is "Am I bovvered?", which means "Am I bothered?" I would imagine Catherine was inspired by watching teenagers; well, she was a teenager once. I've seen many teenagers who speak like Lauren.

I believe the real inspiration for "Am I bothered" is not from teenagers, but the sky.

The sky is not bothered about anything. So what if it's cloudy? What do I care whether people are nice or horrible? Am I bothered? Do I look bothered? Am I?

The sky represents the attributes of the one Self that we all are that are bliss, freedom and boundlessness. Our beliefs and dogmas are like the clouds that are constantly changing according to the social mores of the day. The clouds can't stop the sky being itself. It doesn't matter whether it's stormy, cloudy or the sun is shining, the sky is always the sky.

In the same respect, human beliefs can never change what Self is. It is the nature of Self to be bliss. Nothing can be added to or taken away from Bliss. Therefore,

whether I'm good or evil, Self remains the same,
whether I'm right or wrong, Self is still the same,
whether I'm in sickness or health, Self is unchanging,
whether I'm rich or poor, Self is bliss,
whether I'm alive or dead, Self is.

The sky is freedom. It allows the sun to use it as a canvas to paint pretty pictures on it during sunrise and sunset. Am I bothered? Do I look bothered?

Similarly, Self gives us the freedom to express ourselves even if this means being ignorant of our true nature; we're still given the freedom to express who we are until we come to realise that our nature is also freedom. Then you can't help but allow others the freedom to be.

The sky is boundlessness. When you look up, you can't see where it begins or ends. It seems to go on forever.

In the same respect, Self is boundlessness. Self does not impose rules on anyone. Love, another attribute of Self, is boundlessness. Love has no beginning or end. You can love how you love without conditions or rules. Even if you have rules then that doesn't affect Self for its nature is bliss.

The other day I read an article in "The London Paper" from a gay writer about beauty. He said like most of us he'd been brought up to believe beauty is feminine. He said the first time he touched a woman's breasts he expected fireworks to go off but it just felt soft and they did nothing for him. (I wish I'd made a note of his exact words). He said a lot of women have been so conditioned to expect men to find them attractive and when they don't they either think the guys are repulsed or are scared. He has a point, of course. Why shouldn't all men find me attractive? I'm a woman, for crying out loud.

I consider myself heterosexual. Does this mean I've been conditioned to find men (some men) sexually attractive and not women? Perhaps. Put another way, I do have boundaries. While I like men, I have rules about who I will sleep with. I will not have sex with someone I'm not in a relationship with. That's why I've never had a one-night stand. That's just not for me. While I have rules about sex, I don't mind snogging a guy I've just met. I have kissed guys without having relationships with them. That's just me.

I will never impose my rules about sex n another. Live and let live is my motto. If people want to sleep around, let them. If people prefer people of the same sex, let them.

I guess one reason why I've been conditioned to be with men is because it programmes you to want to have kids. However, I have no such desire to have kids. It's not that I don't like babies or children, I certainly find them delightful; I've even worked with kids. I love how open young children are and how they can love unconditionally. For me, pregnancy and childbirth feel unnatural. Ideas are my babies. Writing is the equivalent of giving birth. You have the idea, which is already complete, and you give birth to it. You let it go into the world. Next!

Again, I wouldn't dream of imposing my views of childbirth on others. I have friend who have kids and I'm very happy for them. Let those who want to have kids have kids. Live and let live.

In a previous article called Abandon Ship versus Being Here Now, I discussed how instead of playing the game of "abandon ship" by going through life and death cycles, I would rather be here now. Now, let's look at this from another perspective. Do you think it matters to Self whether I keep shuttling backwards and forwards or live in the same body forever? Would it change my nature as bliss? Not bloody likely. Being here now is simply my rule; it doesn't make another wrong for doing the life/death cycle routine.

Sky represents the one Self that is in all. As Self I give everyone the freedom to be themselves just as I am free to be me. As Self I am bliss no matter what. As Self I am free to make up my own rules and I let others have their rules as long as they don't impose their rules on me.

Thank you sky for not being bothered.

Sky: Psst.
EJ: What?
Sky: Just to let you know, I'm not bothered either way.
EJ: That's charming, that is.
Sky: Am I bothered? Do I look bothered? Am I?
EJ: Whatever!

I am bliss, freedom and boundlessness; and I am not bothered.

Enocia

Related articles: Perceptions; My Function; Self-Acceptance; Infinite Self; Unity Consciousness; Co-Creating with God; Giving Birth; The Problem with Judging By Appearances; The Clear View

Abandon Ship versus Being Here Now

2007-01-18T11:17:00.000Z

I've had many out of body experiences (OOBE) a.k.a. astral travel/projections. When I was out of my body I felt light and free, while my physical body seemed lifeless. As Light, I could be in many places in thought. As Light, I could manifest an experience instantly. The most important thing my OOBEs demonstrated was that I am Light.

The problem with astral travel is that you're split in consciousness. You see yourself as the Light and the body as the tool the Light uses to express itself. When the Light has had enough of the body, or when the body is no longer appropriate, the Light abandons ship and departs for another reality. This is exactly what happens when people die, they abandon ship while their loved ones mourn over an empty vessel.

How do I stop repeating the "abandon ship" way of living? I have to give up my fascination with OOBEs. Why have OOBE when I can have the experience here and now in bodily form? This means instead of separating myself into Light and darkness, Light body and material body, I see myself as having only one body that is Light. I see all my experiences as Light. Then, and only then, am I fully present.

Old habits die hard. What if you've got used to experiencing your visible body and the universe as material? When you feel pain, for instance, it's natural to want to get rid of it.

I believe:

"My job is not to judge situations or conditions as right or wrong and try to get rid of them but to simply yield whatever it is to be transformed by the Light that I am. Whatever it is then takes on the attributes of the Light i.e. boundlessness, freedom, peace, love, joy, beauty, power, wisdom etc. As to how that which has been transformed is made manifest? Watch this God space." Transformed by the Light
Therefore, instead of getting rid of pain, I simply see it as a Light sensation and then trust in the Light to transmute the experience into itself.

I see every day as an opportunity to practise being Light here and now. In fact, that is what the spiritual path is about, living as Light.

I am Light.
I have a Light body with Light organs.
I have Light senses.
I have Light experiences.
I live in a Light universe.

One day when I have the urge to travel to another reality, I shall travel in my Light ship instead of having to abandon ship.

Enocia

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Been There, Done That

2007-01-17T11:36:00.000Z

Consider the following truth principles that I live by.

God is Light that is present in all time and in all space.
Life is Light expressing Self.
I am Light.

This must means that I, as a point of Light, have already lived this day before.

In fact, the future is set in stone, Light stone.

There is nothing new under the Sun. Every moment is Light.

Enocia

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Throwing a Wobbly

2007-01-16T14:35:00.000Z

As I was waiting for a bus, I noticed a woman and her young daughter. The girl was pushing a toy buggy (push chair). For whatever reason, the girl was, as we say in the UK, throwing a wobbly (very angry). I thought to myself "Awww, the Light is throwing a wobbly! How sweet!"

In fact, Light is all there is. I looked around the bus station. I observed Light beings playing their roles as commuters waiting for their buses.

Another girl, who had been standing close by with her mother, started chatting to the girl with the buggy. They soon made friends. They chatted about the toy buggy and playing "mummies and daddies." Soon the bus arrived and the girl with the buggy and her mother said goodbye and ran to catch their bus.

Hey, you, throwing a wobbly! I know who you are. You are Light.
All is Light.

Enocia

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Are You Sure You're Ready to Receive?

2007-01-16T13:17:00.000Z

My mother went to the hospital yesterday for some more tests in preparation for her hip replacement operation next month. This time she was accompanied by my sister-in-law, who is a midwife and used to hospital procedures.

When I went home yesterday I asked mum how the appointment went. She said the consultant had a cancellation and asked if she was willing to have the operation done today. Mum said the shock of being offered the operation sent her blood pressure rocketing. It took a while for her blood pressure to return to normal.

"Mum, you're too funny!" I said. "You're offered something you've dreamed of and you panic. I can just see the news headlines now: 'Patient Drops Dead Because She's Offered an Operation Too Soon.'"

Mum and I had a good laugh about it. She said she wasn't ready. She's mentally prepared herself to have the operation next month and is prepared to wait till then.

"Now do you see why sometimes our prayers appear not to get answered?" I said.
"What do you mean?"
"Look what happened to your blood pressure when you were offered the operation. Imagine what life would be like if everything we ever thought of was instantly manifested. What if you thought of a lion and the lion instantly appeared, wouldn't you be scared?"
"Of course I would."
"Maybe that's why things don't happen as quickly as we'd like things to happen because we're not ready."

Mum insisted that if she woke up tomorrow and she was completely healed she would accept it.

I believe healing is not just about accepting physical healing but whether you're prepared to accept the lifestyle change that comes with the healing. What if you're receiving some benefits, financial or emotional, for your illness and you're suddenly healed? Are you ready to let go of those benefits just like that?

My mother's experience reminds me of a scene in the film, Life of Brian, where Brian is being pestered by an ex-leper for money.

EX-LEPER:
All right, sir. My final offer: half a shekel for an old ex-leper.
BRIAN:
Did you say... 'ex-leper'?
EX-LEPER:
That's right, sir. Sixteen years behind the bell, and proud of it, sir.
BRIAN:
Well, what happened?
EX-LEPER:
I was cured, sir.
BRIAN:
Cured?
EX-LEPER:
Yes, sir, a bloody miracle, sir. God bless you.
BRIAN:
Who cured you?
EX-LEPER:
Jesus did, sir. I was hopping along, minding my own business. All of a sudden, up he comes. Cures me. One minute I'm a leper with a trade, next minute my livelihood's gone. Not so much as a by your leave. 'You're cured mate.' Bloody do-gooder.
BRIAN:
Well, why don't you go and tell him you want to be a leper again?
EX-LEPER:
Ah, yeah. I could do that, sir. Yeah. Yeah, I could do that, I suppose. What I was thinking was, I was going to ask him if he could make me a bit lame in one leg during the middle of the week. You know, something beggable, but not leprosy, which is a pain in the arse, to be blunt. Excuse my French, sir, but, uh-- Life of Brian, the Ex-Leper
The leper has been healed but his identity as a leper remains intact. The ex-leper is like a smoker trying to give up smoking by using smoking patches. He hasn't given up smoking; he's simply replaced one addiction with another.

Your doctor can help you back on your feet but he can't help you cultivate the beliefs you need for your lifestyle change. You may need to see a shrink for a few years to help you come to terms with your healing. If that doesn't work, you may need to find a spiritual guru to help you get back in your right mind.

God's way is not man's way. God simply reveals Himself as your real self. You're encouraged to let your real self express as you. Then your affairs are transformed as quickly as you're open to let God express as you.

God doesn't play favourites. I believe God is constantly revealing Himself to all but not everyone is ready to let God take over. Since God will never force Himself on anyone, you're allowed to play the human game until you're ready to open up in your own time, whenever that is.

Ask and you will receive....as much as you're open to receive anyway.

Enocia

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In-Dependence

2007-01-15T15:24:00.000Z

It's good to be in control of your life. It's good to practise in-dependence.

What is in-dependence?

In-dependence is being aware of the Light in all and letting the Light express without interference.
In-dependence is being totally dependent on the Light.
In-dependence is trusting in Self.

So yes, I am in-dependent but not independent.

Enocia

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Light Season

2007-01-15T13:51:00.000Z

At the local shop I saw a man with a t-shirt on.

"Look at you," I said to him, "anyone would think it was mid-summer the way you're dressed."
"It's very mild outside," he said.
"Yes, it is."
"Look at you," he pointed to my jacket, "anyone would think you were in the Arctics."

That made me giggle. He was right, I had way too many layers for the weather. When I went home I swapped the thick jumper for a thinner one but I still kept my jacket and scarf just in case.

What's going on? Why are we having such a mild winter? Is this due to "global warming" as the experts tell us?

This is how I see it. Light is the substance of all there is including all the climates. As you wake up to the truth of Light as the only Cause, the weather is going to take on the attributes of the unchanging Light. We should therefore expect constant temperatures to reflect the ever constant Light.

But it's good to have changing of the seasons, you cry! Autumn can be beautiful with all the changing colours. Who is to say we still won't have the changing colours without having to experience extremes of temperature?

As for those who love snow, who is to say the Light will not manifest as snow in some regions but without the extremes of temperature?

Of course there are some industries like the fashion industry and energy companies that want us to experience seasonal changes. Well, they will just have to adapt like everyone, won't they?

All is Light.
Light is summer, autumn, winter and spring.

Enocia

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My New Quest

2007-01-15T13:07:00.000Z

As a child I loved reading The Adventures of Tintin. While I don't remember the stories, the characters are very much alive in my memory.

Tintin was the young intrepid reporter who was always involved in one adventure after another. He had strong principles that he lived by. Though he got himself involved in many scrapes, he always came out the hero.

There was Snowy, Tintin's devoted dog. He didn't always understand Tintin's drive but he was always there by his side. He has come to Tintin's aid on many occasions.

There was Captain Haddock who accompanied Tintin on his many expeditions. Captain Haddock had a hot temper and drank like a fish. One of his favourite expressions when he was angry was "Billions of blue blistering barnacles!"

There was Professor Calculus, the absent-minded and hard of hearing professor. Having a conversation with him is an experience not to be missed. You wonder how he ever got to become a professor.

The Thompson Twins, the bungling detectives, were present in every crime scene. The, thick as two short planks, duo were more a hindrance than a help. "To be precise" they were hilarious.

Years ago, I had a boyfriend who looked like Tintin; well, he wasn't as short as Tintin but he had a similar hairstyle. Alas, it was only a whirlwind romance.

Anyway, my new quest is to read all the Tintin books. It will be interesting to see them from a new light. So next time I pay a visit to the library or the bookshop you'll know what section to find me. I don't know why they categorise these books as children's books anyway, I reckon they're fun for everyone.

Tintin fan, Enocia

Aide memoire: Tintin Books I've Now Read

Awakening

2007-01-15T12:06:00.000Z

"As I see it, realising one's nature as spirit is not about waiting for a time in the future when you will become awake; awakening is occurring in every moment you are aware of love's presence." Practical Spirituality
What we perceive as the physical universe is in deep slumber. By "slumber" I mean the Light that is in all appears to be dormant because most of us are too accustomed to seeing the universe as manifested in different dimensions. If you believe what we're experiencing here is the material aspect of the universe, you're not going to experience it in any other way but material. Regardless of how things appear, Light is in all time and all space. This means there is no material universe or different dimensions; there is only a Light universe. I am living in Light now.

I practise seeing everything as Light.

I am Light; I live in Light.
I see, hear, feel, taste, smell and think Light.

I encounter Light people everywhere; I see Light animals, Light birds and Light nature all around me; I ride on Light buses with Light passengers; I see Light houses and Light buildings everywhere; I am typing on a Light computer; I write Light stories; I experience only Light.

Two days ago as I was working on the Internet, an error message came up. I heard someone reporting the fault to the librarian. He said the system was probably down. This meant that if there was a problem it wouldn't be sorted out till two days later when the IT staff were back at work. I thought "This is not an error message, but a Light error message." Note that I wasn't trying to change the error message, I was simply realising that everything is Light. In no time the Internet was working again.

Last night I stubbed my toe against the chair. For a second it was painful but then I thought, "Oh, I have Light stubbed my Light toe against the Light chair." The moment I had that thought, the pain became Light pain i.e. I felt nothing. Here again I wasn't changing the situation, I was simply remembering Light as the only cause.

Every Light day is a new Light opportunity to remember that all is Light. This is what awakening means for me.

In and of Light.
Enocia

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Gifts from Down Under

2007-01-14T12:14:00.000Z

Last night as I was rummaging through some books on sale at the bookshop I was drawn to a book about wildlife in Australasia. I picked it up and found a seat so I could browsed through it. There were amazing photos of the many varieties of animals and sceneries in Australia, New Zealand and other islands around Australia. The pictures reminded me of when my ex boyfriend and I went travelling around Australia by campervan and explored one national park after another. I've always dreamed of doing it again.

Later that evening on television I watched Kylie Minogue's comeback concert in Melbourne. It was two hours of pure magic. It's good to see our Kylie back in form. We love you, Kylie.

It would seem I was having an Aussie Day.

Thank you Australia.

Enocia

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Dreams Do Come True

2007-01-13T13:53:00.000Z

They've been using the Bobby Darin song "Don't Rain on My Parade" in a car advert. I love it. Part of the lyrics goes:

Hey world, here I am.......

Don't tell me not to fly I've simply got to
If someone takes a spill
It's me and not you
Don't bring around a cloud to rain on my parade Lyrics
Over the last week, I've been following the reality TV show called Soapstar Superstar, where stars from British and Australian soaps are showcasing their musical talents and competing to be this year's Soapstar Superstar. The format is as follows: after all the contestants have performed their songs, members of the public have to vote for their favourite stars to get through to the next round. The two contestants with the least votes have to wait till the beginning of the next show to find out if they're still in or out.

Because the public gets to select songs for the soapstars to perform, I kept hoping they would choose the Bobby Darin song. Well, the public did and nominated Antony Cotton to perform it. The only snag was in that show the two contestants with the least votes were Antony and Tupele Dorgu. This meant if Antony didn't get through to the next round I wouldn't hear him perform my song. Antony did get through and I got to hear him perform my song beautifully.

I also love Antony's attitude to the whole show. He says he doesn't think about winning as that would get in the way of his performance. He prefers to focus on one day at a time and see how it goes. The finale is on tonight but I'm not going to be home on time to watch it.

Thank you Antony for making my dream come true. I love you.

Enocia

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Transformed By the Light

2007-01-13T10:46:00.000Z

"And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? none is good, save one, that is, God." Luke 18: 19
Have you ever heard of the sun discriminating because of race, religion or creed? The sun doesn't think, "I'm not going to shine on you because you're not a good person." The sun shines on everyone regardless of belief. Like the sun, God is "no respecter of persons."

Do you think someone is immoral for going to see some lap dancers at a strip club? Do you think it's wrong for people to get rat-arsed (drunk) at a pub? Given that God is already present in the strip bar and in the pub, God must be very immoral indeed. Having said that, it could be me being thick here; for all I know there is a new definition for "omnipresence" which is "present in some places and not in others." Based on this revised definition, God may very well be absent in strip clubs. I prefer to stick with the traditional definition of omnipresence as in "present everywhere at the same time." God is, therefore, present in all places including temples, churches, pubs and in strip bars.

My point is Light is in all forms including what we consider to be right and wrong or good and evil. The moment you try to get rid of something because you consider it evil, you're trapped in the duality dream that has nothing to do with God.

Surely sickness is evil? It can't be God's will for us to suffer from diseases.

Remember God is everywhere present including what people appear to be suffering from. Instead of trying to get rid of the condition because you believe it is evil, why not seek to experience God's presence? Only then will you know what God's will is.

Last night I felt the urge to cough. Mum says when I cough I wake her up. She doesn't even like me coughing around her during the day because she says my cough is so loud it startles her. The more I tried to suppress the cough the more it wanted to come out. I asked the Light present in me to transform the cough into Light cough. The urge to cough instantly left me and I was a lot lighter for it.

My job is not to judge situations or conditions as right or wrong and try to get rid of them but to simply yield whatever it is to be transformed by the Light that I am. Whatever it is then takes on the attributes of the Light i.e. boundlessness, freedom, peace, love, joy, beauty, power, wisdom etc. As to how that which has been transformed is made manifest? Watch this God space.

In Light.

Enocia

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Beyond Belief

2007-01-12T16:35:00.000Z

I was going to point an Internet friend to my blogs Home Sweet Home! and Home Sweet Home! - The Sequel that have my photographs on the profile. Something told me to check the profile. I discovered both photos had been replaced by the fractal of pure light. I didn't consciously edit my profile but another part of me obviously had without my conscious awareness. Cheeky! I suppose the fractal is closer in likeness to who I am than the photograph.

When I went home I noticed my mother was watching a programme called Beyond Belief: Fact or Fiction hosted by Jonathan Frakes. It was quite funny seeing Jonathan Frakes considering I'd just written an article where I said I was more interested in "Star Trek" characters than the actors. Jonathan Frakes was Commander T Riker in "Star Trek The Next Generations."

Anyway, the plot summary of "Beyond Belief" is as follows:

"Within the course of one hour 5 stories are shown. None of these stories have any logical explanation, and some of them actually occurred. You are left to decide which of these stories, if any are fact, and which are fiction." Plot Summary
I told mum about how my blog profile was updated without my conscious awareness. I said my story could easily be included in "Beyond Belief."

How did Enocia's blog photos change without her consciously doing it? Did Enocia update her profile in her sleep? Is this story fact or fiction?

Whatever you decide, it did happen.

Enocia

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Acting is Being - Part 2

2007-01-12T15:10:00.001Z

Last night I watched the film Ali, based on the biography of the boxer, Muhammad Ali from his early days to when he became a boxing champion. I was amazed at how much Will Smith had transformed himself both physically and mentally to be like Ali. If I didn't know he was only acting I could have sworn he was Ali.

Where do these characters come from? Is it sufficient to simply study someone to be that person? I don't think so. I believe one can be any character because that person is already within you. Each of us is a microcosm of the macrocosm; we contain the entire universe within us, and I mean all forms and realities. To be someone all you need to do is to evoke the person within you. When you evoke that person you are letting that person or character take over at that moment. Acting is Being
As I was walking this morning to the bus stop it started drizzling. Although I had my hood on I didn't fancy walking in the rain so I thought "I AM Dry Weather" and I saw dry weather as light coming from me to infinity. The rain stopped.

As I was walking on the Internet, an error message came up. I tried again and the error came up again. Time for another decree: "I AM the Internet." Again I saw the Internet as rays of light coming from me and going everywhere. The "problem" was fixed.

In the above examples, what I was doing was evoking the realities within me to come forth.

I am what I seek.

Enocia

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